random

Well, typical monday for today.. haha.. dragging myself to work as usual.. just finish my jamming session with my church band. we had makan makan at BRJ. just have this random thoughts.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unforgiveness, selfishness, and fears. And you will find things not as difficult as you think.

oh ya, check this out. there are 4 things that you cannot recover. can you think of it?

the stone after the throw

the word after it's said

the occasion after the loss

the time after it's gone

alrights thats all for tonight. bye bye

life is like a knife

have you thought about your life sometimes? i think of it most of the time. for what purpose do i live and what should i do in my life? what should i study and where? study until what level? what is the suitable age for me to work? where to work? which is the right path should i walk? all these questions are always coming back and forth. thats life i guess. Chinese have this phrase, human will not be human if they dont trouble themselves with troubles. quite true to me. i find it hard to cope with all these questions nowadays. it has been troubling me day and night. i try not to focus too much but i cant. it is getting worst, i find myself difficult to sleep every night.

so back to my title, life is like a knife dont you think so? our lives is like a double edge weapon. at one point it will of course bring you happiness but on the other hand, it can make you suffer too.
god says, we should pass our weariness to him. how many person can actually do that 100%? i doubt it. there are times where i myself have to make the decision regardless of right or wrong. maybe that is my weakness. am i losing faith? or do i doubt GOD? i dont know either. all i know is i was brought up in such a way. i have no one to rely on ever since i was a child. friends? most of them are hypocrite and they betray you when you need them. parents? i was born in the broken family. parents care is what i lack of. everyday i have to witness both of them shouting at each other. i ask myself, God, how old are they? why cant they just stop all these shit and live happily together? arent they tired? as their children, i do. most of the children will take their father as hero. someone can look up to. as for me? i dont. he's nothing but someone i dont feel like talking to most of the time. he whacked me most of the time, almost get me killed more than once. yet i'm still forgiving him.

i always ask myself, what am i? if God loves me, why do i have to suffer? but it came across my mind too.. there are ppl who suffer more than me. they cry out to God like i did. WHY WHY? why dont we get our answers? because of sin? perhaps it is. there are times where we dont pray or read the bible. we dont confess our sins, worst still we dont know what we are doing is sinning against God. i bet what most of us lacking is communicating to God. ppl nowadays is too busy with their daily routine. facebook, blogging, business, work, investment, leisure, intertainment and more and more of them.

they have forgotten to communicate with God. our saviour, the one who give us salvation. the one who sent his only son to die for us. somehow God send me message stating all these. i bet i am one of those ppl too. i feel much better after writing it down. God will surely bless me abundantly for testifying against the devil.
my last word is to advice all of the Christians out there. if you really love God, read the bible everyday. pray to Him everyday.

a not so happy day

today is just a not so happy day for me.. why? hmm... after suffering for more than a year.. i cant stand the harassment anymore, i've decided to resign. yes i did.. just finish typing my resignation letter and i'm gonna pass it to my manager tomorrow.

i've been thinking about it all by myself.. what is the reason for me to stay on in this lousy company. salary? sucks.... working hours? 9-5(sometimes have to wait for customer and work until 8pm) thats 12 working hrs.. outgoing colleague?? all back stabbing each other. so tell me what good do i have in staying there? NONE!!

i had enough of all these shits this company is giving me. i'll QUIT!! i dont care if i'm gonna be jobless or i cant find a better job.. all i care is i dont wanna work there anymore. its traumatizing me to work on.

i'll just have to pray for a better company.. i know god will help me on this..

Thats the end of my journey in you PROTON, so long sucker

the 2nd problem that causes me to be unhappy is because of you. do you know how much i have poured in? but why cant u just understand me more? or maybe i dont understand about you too. i just hope we can be honest to each other. please dont hide things from me and expect me to understand u later on. because i dont, i cant, i dont have supernatural ability. hope we can be straight forward to each other in the future.. bye bye blog

Loupoh's Graduation Day

Everyone has their convocation, but this convo is different. it is Sarah Low's convocation. Finally you have grown up, I'm so glad and proud that you have made it this far even though u said it was tough.

i got up early morning to prepare my surprise for her (hehehe) we planned to go together but purposely told her my car is blocked and I'll be late so she can go with her family while i hide the flower without her knowing. it was a nice morning after the rain.

The convo was held in wisma MCA. i was shocked when i saw the crowds.

Amazing isn't? haha.. the auditorium was so packed as well. so after the ceremony. all the graduates running around to take photos with their friends. same goes to my dear. lets look at those pics i have taken.

Busy talking to friends on where to meet for photo session

Loupoh and her friends

Loupoh and family

Loupoh and sister

i have done it!! yuuhuuuu

to my dear friend ah PAO

Guess it is time for me to update my blog.. lets talk about my friend here named Ah PAO(of cause this is not the real name) aka Choong Kar Wai. what is so good about this PAO PAO anyway.. hahha.. let me talk about history.









We were friends since our primary school, we weren't that close nor do we even talk to each other much but deep inside we knew something great is gonna happen in the future in out lives.




seriously i cant remember when did we get really close to each other.. but i can say it started in secondary 4. we were in the same class this time. he's the jukebox of the class. because u can ask him to sing u any songs.. muahahaha.. cool isn't he? slowly and slowly we get to know each other and we go to chapel service together every Wednesday. he was still in another group of our class instead of mine.. until someone made him mad (u know who I'm talking about rite?) he came to our group and we hang out more until the day we bid farewell and walk on different path. soon after that we seldom contact each other anymore until the power of God bring us together again (isn't it amazing?)




So the conclusion about this friend of mine. Ahem, knowing him meant so much in my life. he is like a real brother to me, he taught me a lot. he's kind and willing to help me whenever i ask for help. he is generous and he is not proud even though he is smart. Thank God for giving me this brother.

No subject?

Wow... how long has it been since my last post? quite some time already.. amazingly, i feel like blogging today. 1st of all, sorry to those who has been faithfully waiting for me to post. i don't really have time recently. i got promoted since last march and I've gotten busier since then. come to think of it, i don't even have time for myself sometimes. luckily i still manage to spend my time with GOD (very important), my family, my dear and of cause not to forget about you my fren, PAO.

SO.. what can i say? okay okay, let me make this clearly, i still have a lot of posts coming up. In case you are asking yourself what about the older post i promised. no worries, almost done i can say.

alright, that's all about it.. take care everyone..

My Sweet Valentine

Its 14th!! its 14th!! its valentine already!! haha.. 1st of all, i wish everyone happy valentine's day. as for myself, i had a great valentine for the 1st time!!

Lets talk about my valentine.. i can say this is the very 1st time of me having a proper valentine with the chosen one.. well, we celebrated once few years back. but to me it wasn't enough, it wasn't romantic and it wasn't pure and sincere enough.. so this year i plan sometime more than what i gave her previously.. hope "you" are happy with it.

it started off with an outing on the eve of valentine's. right after the clock past 12, i handed her a MICKEY MOUSE 3D jigsaw puzzle and a CARD. of cause, i gave her a dozen of roses with 2 bears on it.. she was so happy and amazed.. hahaz.. she tot i would never buy her flowers because i said buying flowers are wasting money(eventhough it is, but as long as you are happy, i'm willing to buy it for you).

On the nexy day, which the actual valentine's day, we went to chili's bangsar for dinner after my work. it was my 1st time there. the foods there are quite good i can say. hehe..

Looking at the menu

where is my food?? i'm starving here!!

After dinner we went to Mid Valley for movie. She didnt know i already bought the tix 2 days before. She was so unhappy when i told her we have to queue for tickets. The queue was extremely out of control. Haha, and i told her " TOO BAD, no movie for tonight ".. OMG, her face was so sad and so so so so so adorable.. Later on only she realised that i already got the tickets in hand.. We watch THE WEDDING GAME. Quite a movie though. I'm impressed that S'pore can make good movies nowadays.

WE walked around The Gardens after the movie. "GOD! please save some tiramitsu for me on valentine's ", was in my mind when we were walking there. We stopped by ALEXIS for desserts. I should have asked the manager to reserve me some tiramitsu if i knew its gonna sold out so EARLY! He insisted to recommend me Chocolate Caramel Tart (which is good also in order) to keep us seated on our seats. I was convinced when he said he would eat the whole Chocolate Caramel Tarts that is in the house by himself if WE dont like it. The tart tastes GREAT afterall though. Well, i guess thats all for my sweet VALENTINE. Last but not least, I LOVE YOU DEAR!!

Tiramitsu

Chocolate Caramel Tart

Thats the end of my valentine's day.. hehe.. I hope i will be celebrating it with you again on next year, the year after next year and forever!